i saw my shining shield and armor rust. i felt my posture bow and fall to dust. but all the vigils and the stakes i claimed couldn't take the sting from out my shame, couldn't take the color from the stain that i became. i'm the fervor of the fever you can't sweat. i'm the garments stuck to your skin, drenched and dripping wet. i'm a spring of flowing fume and fret. i'm the melody stuck inside your head.

what have i become?

literature, being ungrateful, parking lot parties, playgrounds late at night, sushi, pinkberry, calamari, hating your guts, never finishing anything, not being the sun, transgression, existentialism

Brand New, Anathallo, Set Your Goals, The Receiving End of Sirens, Gatsbys American Dream, Say Anything, The June Spirit, Further Seems Forever

Almost Famous, Constantine, The Fountain, Dead Poets Society, Sunshine

Heroes, House M.D., Project Runway, America's Next Top Model, Top Chef, Gossip Girl

Chuck Palahniuk, Dave Eggers, Daniel Handler, Bret Easton Ellis, J.K. Rowling, Garth Nix, David Sedaris, Cassandra Clare